PEDESTAL

In a million ceramic pieces
in a thousand shards of tears
falls your place of honour
falls into a den of fears

where is your reason now
where is your justice
could you absolve somehow
the sins that you embellish

IM GONNA FIND ANOTHER YOU...a paraphrase

Its really over(really?)

You made your stand

You got me crying(a lot)

As was your plan(I knew it all along)

But when my loneliness is through(kelan kaya yun...)

Im gonna find another you

You take your sweaters(you got your shirt na right?)

You take your time

You might have your reasons(good ones)

But you will never have my rhyme(and I have a lot baby)

Im gonna sing my way away from blue(a little dancin too)

Im gonna find another you

When I was your lover

No one else will do(you know its true)

And if Im forced to find another(IF)

I hope she looks like you

and she's nicer too(or you could be nicer and itd still be you...)

So go on, baby(boo?)

Make your little getaway

My pride will keep me company(andami ko nun...)

And just gave yours all away

Now Im gonna dress myself for two

Once for me, and once for someone new(me and Cati...)

Im gonna do some things you wouldnt let me do

(like txt while driving and play with the soil)

Im gonna find another you(most probably not)

(bitterness never sounded sooo good)

Many thanks to the master, John Mayer

BRAVERY

For the longest time

I thought bravery was the absence of fear

the headlong rush

into overwhelming odds

against overwhelming foes

I thought bravery was

the eternity of hope

to eternally prevail

against insurmountable darkness

to accept the unseen

all the while I forgot

that there is bravery

in a falling leaf

in a fallen seed

to be stricken with heat

and battered with rain

to be reborn again

maybe, there is bravery

in surrender

YOUR TURN

How does it feel
How does it feel
to have the tables turned
to have the places reversed


to be the one sought after
to be the one dreams are built around

i'ts you now
who holds the power
to make hearts cringe
to make tears fall

UNTITLED 2

Tonight I lose my great love

To a person

To a sin

To a memory

 

Tonight I lose my heart

To the destiny

Of a million souls

Of a million stars

Strewn across

A thousand galaxies

And a hundred dreams

 

Tonight I lose my soul

To a yesterday

Of countless shadows

To a tomorrow

Of a multitude of tears

Eager to fall

 

Tonight I lose myself

And in losing bound myself

To the chains of great love

Brandished with the name

Of one who can give both

Unparalleled joy

And matchless pain

UNTITLED

The echoes bounce of the walls
Silent screams of silent hearts

permitted the walls attune themselves
to the murmurs of a tragic soul and
provide comfort with their concrete grasp

I embrace them
welcoming the warmth of stone in twilight
rather than lay cold under a blanket of stars

TWILIGHT

it's much like a star now
glimmering a million leagues away
present and eternal
that shines even without
being chosen to be seen

a silent echo
through a canopy of dream

NOW

Now is where our hearts reside
yours in pride and freedom
mine in thorns and stains

there was once then
where your and mine
walked hand in hand

then there is later
where you promised pain
and I embraced it

...I know
its over
and we wasted it
our vows
our promises
and a million pixels
worth of memories
one thing I don't get

...if I was the one who left
why am I the one still here?
...if I was the one who ended it
why am I the one who still loves?

TINKERBELL

To her who gives dust
for others to soar to heights
whose love comes unreturned
now she silenty cries

all the happy thoughts
in the world
couldn't make Tinkerbell fly

OXYMORON

I long to really hate you

to vent out anger
and to hold nothing back
to scream against the howling wind saying...

I gave you my all!
I held nothing back!

I deserve a little respect!
I deserve a little time!

I'm more than what you see me,
worth more than your sullen silence!

but in the end
in the night
love envelops me again
and I am powerless against it

for beneath all thE rage

is pain

and love

NOW AWAY

here is my parting gift to you
one that you always asked for
I leave it to you
abounding in love
and an equal amount of pain

miss me
at para di ka magsawa

NOW YOU

Standing in this
shower of untruth
drenched in a cacophany
of sheltered lies
empty words
and vacant kisses

realizing that held hands
were corpses
dead in the decay
of a thousand seasons

bearing the wind of a
hundred broken promises
and corrupted oaths

ETO SAYO

eto sa iyo
nagpapataba ng sarili sa mga halina at pagsuyo
lumalamon ng puri at nagtatakam ng pansin

ngunit sa lalim ng iyong mga plastik na ngiti
nananaig ang iyong kapangitan
binabalot mo ang sarili sa mga hibla
na gawa sa salamin

pinalilibutan ka ng mga imahen ng iyong sarili
at nang mga hugis ng tao na dumarapa sa harapan mo

dahil ang hiling mo lamang ay ang sarili mo
at ang pansin na binibuhos sa iyo
parang krudo
kelangan mo upang tumakbo
upang umilaw

sayang ang dati mong kagandahan
ngayon ni hindi ka na abutan
at ang mga dati mong inaasahan
ay dahan-dahan nang
magkakandawalaan

Eto na ba ang tunay na ikaw?

TONIGHT'S ELEGY

The evening used to be full of sorrow

As if the stars themselves were weeping

Twilight tears

And moonlit drops

 

I used to fear the waking dawn

Where morning clouds would signal

The advent of another day

Bearing a lonely wind

Or a silent telephone

 

Maybe the sight of me in your shadow

Has become too tiring

Or the sound of a hundred broken promises

Became too loud

And needed to be

Silenced

Along with phrases of “I love you”

And “forever”

 

Yet I don’t think I’ll ever reach

Goodbye

It is too impossible now

For as far as you are

From me

I carry myself along with you

 

The tear that you cause

I fill with you

So that my heart ails

And heals

Together because

Of you

STORM THOUGHTS

On rain that cripples
the earth
and leaves time for watching drops
and far-off thoughts

it leaves you vulnerable
to truths unconsidered
or pains repressed

it opens choices unrecognized
now naked after the afternoon rain
and chosen then
in the silent evening pain

...sige na
you win
and your award
is my absence