bestrongandcourageous

UNTITLED

Too many sunsets have passed my way

Each one a mark on my dirty slate

Sometimes I fear the twilight

Knowing that Id wake up to another heartache

For a while id fancy myself a rock

Tough and hard

Not long after Ive tossed it around

Even it broke into tiny shards

Im never that strong

Nor am I brave enough to pretend

Even I have to start believing

That some things really do have to end

But then one night as I hid among the sheets

Knowing full well the terror that the sun can bring

I was awoken by an all-too familiar beep

And in quiet notes my heart began to sing

I took my time to take it in

Afraid of the cliff looming before me

But in the end I knew what would win

And no sooner did I start falling freely

Afraid, yeah I was afraid

Afraid that another day had come bringing tears

But so far the fall has been good

And maybe I was wrong about my fears

I don’t know whether Id hit rock bottom

I sure hope soon enough I’ll learn to fly

But one thing I know, I know for sure

that now I’m brave enough to try

up from the hospital bed

take away that rusty thermometer and put aside your old stethoscope

i don't need your syringe nor those pills on the table

i am better

i am putting aside this hospital gown and i'm buying new clothes to wear

so here's for the bills and the frown, for i've got work to do and people who care.

DO I BELIEVE THIS?

We do not fight for what we already have
nor do we travel to where we have been
to seek what is lost and push through
is to clearly see what is unseen

AN INCH A SECOND

grasp
grasp the clouds of hope
hold fast to the shower
that falls
when the sun has grown weary
of beating its hard rays
and gives way
to the coolness of the rain

claw
claw through the muddied past
kick off the dirt of despair
and rush into the haze
of an inevitable tomorrow

an inch now is enough
a single moment
to make it past
the second where your heart
was held captive

A DLSU D-DAY

I forgot how it felt

the nauseating feeling of senior year

and thesis and projects and papers

I was glad to be there and offer any help that I could

If ever I did

kaya nyo yan

promise.

LOST THOUGHTS ON A FORGOTTEN PAGE

While hanging out in the study(Tim, Arvin, Mika, Sam, yadz, RJ, Ako) Yadz found

an old page tucked in a Pilgrim's Progress book.

I can't even remember when I wrote them...

- Then I perceive it is not best to covet the things that are now,

    but to wait for things to come.

- The first must give place to the last, but the last gives place to nothing.

-Better though difficult, the right way to go

  Than wrong, though easy, where the end is woe

A WONDERFUL NIGHT WITH MY BEST BF

And they say pretty guys don't come in twos.

Timmy and I ate at Mcdo, watched "You are the one," and had cakes at Red Ribbon. It was a super date filled with all the "lovelorn" drama one could stomach.

(syempre nagdala pa kami nang cake kay Yadz)

in any case, we should do it more often.

us lonely guys. :)

RED LETTERS

drip, drip
the words drip with doubt
the words drip with feeling

each stroke and crest cries
with every drop of ink
with every slanted curve

do you see it?
your hands are soaked in it
drenched in my tears
submerged in my iniquities

Red letters

STEADY HEART

I wish for more of a steady heart

one that keeps beating even when far apart

...Lord who holds all and knows all

let me not grope, let me not fall

WELL?

If there is no battle to fight,

how can something be worth fighting for?

PABUHAT NAMAN

kuya abe texted that sna pwede ako mag instant gig sa lifehouse,

i didnt have any idea what to sing so...I just made one!

aking katapangan
ligayang pinadaramdam
nauubos din

aking kasiglahan
ngiting pinahihiram
nawawala rin

nais ko din naman talagang
akayin ka
ngunit sa dilim nang gabi
tumutulo ang luha

pabuhat naman
o kay bigat ng damdamin
paakay naman
o kay lalim ng dilim
pabuhat naman

WINTER TO END

this I got from watching "The Break-up" alone....

(Promise...its worse than watching Sukob nang mag-isa)

Spring comes at Winter's end
only after the leaves start to fall

BOW

STRENGTH IN WEAKNESS, COURAGE IN UNCERTAINTY

My tears are here

can you see them?

and the stains they make

on pages of poetry

My wounds are here

can you feel them?

and the scars they leave

on my battered soul

My strength is also here

can you taste it?

overwhelming every bitter thought

of loss and worry and pain

My faith is also here

can you hear it?

sonorous silence

a distant and persistent bell

[its amazing how much poetry there exists in a 5pm jog in Angelus]

THANK YOU TNPA

...Thank you TNPA(Tropang Negosyante Po Ako) the DLSU-D org that has a big heart, a bigger laugh and an even better soul. It was my honour to speak for you. Ako ang na-bless, sa uulitin!

MALUNGKOT DAW AKO

people have been saying that lately I have been sounding down and depressed...

yun para ba daw crying naked and ashamed in the gutter kind of depressed.

Not really, its just the journey of life, its ups, its downs, and minsan yun mga patiwarik and pagulong-gulong. But its all good.

I love God

He loves me

....at sya din.

kaya ok naman ang lahat :)